After a long pause...

Half a year down the line, I've managed to find my way back to this blog. Monsoons in Mumbai, an impending high tide, the threat of leptospirosis and a host of other un-explicable rain-related diseases, impatient monkeys and ever-hungry dogs on the campus... I wonder what finally got me writing. Playing a game of badminton after a gap of four years, attending my first General Body Meeting, painting my nails green, staying up real late and watching movies at one go, coming to class having read up the prescribed articles... a lot has changed. A strange, unsettling emotion that rages up and settles down the next moment. A blankness that doesnt hurt not does it allow me to celebrate. A strange loneliness that feels empowering and the same time saddening. A continuous rush of desires, expectations of the present and the future, dreams and hopes, questions and possible solutions, catching up with old friends, looking for what i may call my "passion", finding new interests, reading Walker, enjoying classes, cherishing my relationships... and still an emptiness. A void. I'm not sad but nor am i happy. A strange calm... but not quite contentment. People are changing, I am changing, life itself is on the run. As seasons change, i stand around the bend, not sure of where I'm heading and how it'll be. Leaving behind the Past, holding on to the Present, plunging into the Future...I' trying to find Myself.